I'm going to Hell. Somehow. I really think I've lost faith in myself. And probably in God to, not that I ever even had faith in him. I guess I just really needed some kinda hope. But, it's too late. I'm doing the best and I'm doing all I can. But, how much longer can I do this shit? I'm sick and tired of it all. I miss the days when I thought I'd never give up. I miss the times when I could set the world on fire. Back when I figured I could take on anything. Life could've pitted me against Satan and all of hell for all I care. But, no. That's too easy. I had to try to beat God. And why? Because fuck you. That's why. And everything and everyon